Strange

How in the evening I can feel completely overwhelmed and trapped by all the things I have to do and the limited time I have to complete them.
And in the morning all those things seem to fade away and I struggle to remember what was so pressing the night before.

Noteworthy things for today (so far):
1. Google docs
2. Oxford pumps
3. What 3 dishes shall I bring to Thanksgiving potluck?
4. Mad Science
5. Fake nails

It's Amazing How Moody I Am

Maybe amazing isn't the right word, but it is truly remarkable that one minuted I can be struggling to control anxiety, fighting back tears, and heaving heavy breaths to stay composed.  I read an email where someone calls me a rock star for my accomplishments and suddenly I'm so giddy, I can't force the smile off my face.  Is this a sign of how desperately I need approval? Am I emotionally tattered? I feel wrapped around fingers and I'd love to know where my self respect has gone.  Regardless, I am still stoked to be called a rock star.

Important things for today:

1. Generous Brother/Cousin in-law who gave us a brand new lawn mower
2. Lunch with the family
3. Dinner with the other family
4. My beloved grandma turned 80 yesterday
5. My living room
6. A lovely seasonal beer named Brrr...
7. My precious Xavier

Angry Day

It didn't start that way... to begin with it was all pizza and puppies. But as it went along I was presented with hoops that I didn't want to jump through, but I put on a smile and started hopping.  In the end, it doesn't feel worth it - the smiles anyway.

Important things to remember:

1. Bacon
2. Chewy puppies
3. Lunch with good friends
4. Clients who let me film them
5. A glass of wine at the end of my day to mend my wounded pride

Ahhh... Tomorrow.  Please, please go easy on me!

It's time to start cooking dinner

I haven't regularly cooked dinner in years.  It's definitely time.  I like courses.  Multi-course dinners feel fancy and festive.  This is the season for festive things.  I will need:
1. Recipes
2. Groceries to make the recipes
3. Dishes to serve the recipes on

I got new wedding dishes but they arrived chipped and shattered.  I'm thinking they are not the durable dishes I had hoped for. Debating whether to replace the broken ones or the whole set. They've been a lot of trouble.

Noteworthy things for today:
1. The elderly couple that just walked by my house holding hands
2. The familial sound of a distant train
3. My son's first day of mad science, which he paid for himself
4. Four new peacoats in my closet, which I should return but probably won't
5. The disappointment of a broken glass that was given to me by someone special

Ummm... I just wanted to follow John's Face

And now there's a blog for me to write all the important things I think.  I still have to figure out how to follow John.  Important things for today:

1. The fire place
2. The colors outside
3. Online recipes
  4. My feminine lineage